To my fellow Potter fans...

We've all been waiting for this and YES... at least we now have a decent teaser... go check it out guys! I can't wait for July 13, 2007... I am such a fan! Did I say I'm such a Potter fan?!

From the leaky-cauldron website:

http://www.the-leaky-cauldron.org/videogallery/video/show/562

Is it possible? Even *better* than the Official Teaser Trailer......believe it!

Filled with spoilers and clips far beyond just the clips included within the teaser trailer alone. Dan, Rupert and Emma all speak on how dark the film is, the amazing sets, how strong the plot and themes are and how their characters are together more as a cohesive unit than ever before.

Dan specifically talks about the themes that strike him the most, such as falling in love and discovering that the world is filled with people who arent so "friendly".

(Sorry the EXPAND button is not working. Just PLAY it.)

HBO OotP Sneak Preview! (MAJOR SPOILER)

Some of the wonderful treats include clips of Sirius fighting Bellatrix, Umbridge being Umbridge, conceptual art of Thestrals and Grawp,sneak peaks of Lucius, Veil and Prophecy, Daniel and Gary running lines and much much more! Filled with spoilers, but the best OotP preview we have seen by far!

Come leaves, goes forgets.

One thing I realized during my breakfast moment with my Fwend Mel (which we should do more often) is that we may cross paths with friends who comes and goes. We may miss them. It may hurt sometimes that we thought they left us behind... But they will come back in time. And will catch up on lost time. It is okay... no need to feel sorry about it. They maybe the restless kind too! More restless than both of us.

But I also realized that what I don't need is the kind of friend who leaves and forgets. I have my own share of these kind of people. People who pass by my life and I'm glad they're just passing by because with these kind of people... THE HELL I CARE!

Ayayu Fwend Mel... tuloy tayo kina Blue... party party!

Folks Tag - Sooo Real Sooo Much

One of the most meaningful episode I have ever seen...
My gawd, this is sooo true and the scene is sooo real...

J: You already know what I want. I have already told you.
B: That's right. You have... a husband, a family, a home... all the things that makes life worth living.
J: Would you fucking cut it out?! Stop it. And I know you can't give me those things.
B: Not can't. Can't implies that I'm incapable of, it's just that I won't.
J: I accept that. I suppose that's why I always loved you.
B: The untamable beast.

J: But to be a couple both people have to want the same things... to move on the same direction. If they can't, or won't, they really have nowhere to go.

B: Probably not.
J: Then why are we still doing this if we both know this will never gonna work?
B: Time to find out...

I am sooo amazed with the bravery of Justin...

I sooo can relate with both characters (then and sometimes now).

This is how I even started blogging.

Because it used to be (and still what is) all about... what Nicholas Sparks said:

" We are always connected...

But never together. "

Some Halloween Time

Snap shots! Snap shots!
May orb?! May moo-moo?!
Again, Oh I soo love halloween...



Relish the moments... enjoy the fun...
'Wag kang lilingon... hushhhh...

Life's Snippets from Claudia

The year 2006 - year of red fire dog - is a year of struggle for me. Don't get me wrong, I sooo love dogs but maybe dogs sometimes hate or not even compatible with roosters. I wonder why this year didn't turned out the way I want it to be. I feel I am not on the right track right now. I'm feeling all this negativity around me. Recently, during my quiet moments, I always wonder why and what happened?

I always have everything planned.
I always try to keep focused.
I always make sure I am heading the right direction.

But for the past 2 years, looking back now, I feel that I'm heading nowhere. I always try to prepare myself for the future but why am I stuck with same-old-same-old me 2 years ago? I thought that living here in Manila will let me experience my so-called metropolitan life I've always wanted before I move on for greener pastures on some foreign land. But hell, right now what I have is the end-result of an immature, selfish, prison-break-wild-guy stuck in his quarter-life crisis phenomenon. And to be honest, I feel that I'm using this quarter-life-crisis as an excuse for my immaturity and selfishness!

People who are close to me may disagree about me being selfish. But I am. I maybe be able to continuously support my family but it is definitely not enough. I spend so much money for my self, my loans, my luxury, unnecessary things, thus, sacrificing things I could've offered for my family.

I'm venting this out right now because if I will not do this, I feel that I am about to explode. I have a lot of worries. My heartbeat is always twice the normal beats per minute everyday.

I just received this blog announcement from my mentor and after reading through her 2 entries, it suddenly hit me. Realization sinking in. (Tears puring down my cheeks right now... :'(...huhu! )

I feel worse. I am such a failure for my standards. (Tears still pouring down... gawd! Let it stop! Am I just mushy today?). Let me just give you some snippets on her post that really hits me big time:

"How can I say with conviction that life is wonderful inspite of it all? WELL, BECAUSE I'VE LEARNED THE ART OF BEING GRATEFUL."

"I've learned to be thankful for whatever comes my way, GOOD OR BAD..Also, a long time ago, I learned to take responsibility for my life, for my mistakes..ANd so scapegoating is not in my vocabulary. When things go wrong, I ask myself, "What could i have done to cause it?" When things are great, I just look up to heaven and say, "thank u lord!""

"As i listened to the church music & the preaching, my tears started to fall..I realized that I missed Jesus so much; that i've been too busy; that i've been caught up w/ all the worldly things; that it's been a while since i last listened to HIs word...AND YET, INSPITE OF IT ALL, GOD HAS RICHLY BLESSED ME!!!!"

"If God were a collector of debt, I'll be put in jail by now.. I owe Him so much of my time, my commitment, my life! And its time i put my life in perspective..God must be the Navigator, not me."

I miss my mentor so much. I owe a lot of what I've become because of her, not only as my former boss but as my dear friend and mentor. I still want her to be my inspiration on these trying times but there is this voice inside me that no matter how I try to look back and think of what she's been through and how she redeem herself in the process, I still hear its whispers telling that my situation is still different.

I must agree though that I have to be thankful and be grateful for the good and the bad things I have right now. I am aware I am responsible for my mistakes... for where I am right now. But like what I've told you my friend... I still can't forgive my self yet. Not yet. And I know I have to start from there.

Right now I'm stuck.

I don't know where to go or how to create opportunities. I've forgotten what I used to be. I miss that person... the old Lance who is full of hope and courage. I miss that positive thinker. I am so consumed with this worldly and ungodly things around me. And realizing this breaks my heart... again... sob... sob!

I hope I can just be someone who doesn't care about life at all. I hope I can be that someone who doesn't worry about the future and just living life as it is. But I am not that person...

Eversince college, I have always live my life like Michael Jordan:

"I visualize myself where I wanted to be... what kind of person I wanted to become. I know exactly where I wanted to go. And I focused on getting there."

I know the person I want to become and the life I want to have... and right now, I can't focus on getting there... I should stop navigating my life...

Crash and Burn

Today is supposedly the day...
Is this what I really wanted?
Is it worth the risk?
Am I willing to sacrifice everything?
All these 9 months of roller coaster ride?
It will not push through anyway... not today...
But what about tomorrow?
A day after tomorrow?
A week after next?
What will happen if it strikes again?
Should I again choose between you and a fictional being?
And should I let this day come to let this fictional being come into reality?!

Yesterday, this fictional character almost destroyed both of us.
I am sorry.
I am confused.
I have a lot of inhibitions.
And I know it's killing you.
Killing you every single day.

Lots of questions...
Lots of doors I'm closing...
I can feel my insides burning...
Yes, I am insensitive...
Yes, I am selfish...
And I just realized I am...

Unfortunately, at this point...
I still don't know what to do about it.
I am not there yet... not yet.

Friendsturr No More... Mobie we go!

Today, November 4, 2006 @ 8:15:08 AM

Business Card Received from - (Jedi Knight)
JK: Lancelot?
Lance: Yup, who's this please? Where'd you get my number?
JK: Frendster. __ here ;-)
Lance: Aww. Umm, __ '__' sa friendster? Busy? W'sup?
JK: D me naka rep sa f.ster. Dami gnawa last halowin. ;-)
Lance: Ah I see. So taping ka pa rin now? Just watching Smallville here and feeding my fish.
JK: Am home, fish? What fish tilapia or bangus hehe joke.
Lance: Haha! Damsel at tomato clown fish. Nu gawa mo? San ka now?
JK: Paranaque, me din may fish, guppy and arowana
Lance: Ah really. Hilig ka rin pala sa fishda. I read your testi's. Adik ka din pala sa PC Games.
JK: LOTR, starwars, generals game ko. Online rpg hehe
Lance: Yeah hanap nga ako ng pirated na Starwars, wala eh. Haha! Civilization IV gusto ko aralin now.
JK: Ah. Hehe lotr ok.
Lance: Yeah. Sabi nga friends ko. Paranaque ka pa, anlayo mo pala sa GMA.
JK: Yap. Ligo lang me
Lance: Okay. Bawi na muna ako din tulog...

So there, my Jedi Knight strikes again. I just have to blog this first few texts to mark this day... 'wag na natin i-reveal yung iba after this. Hehehe! Hanggang kelan kaya 'to?...

Halloween Treat!

Wow! What a treat... I've been feeling so happy for myself (for no major reason) and for those people who mean the most to me and who've been a part on some corner of my mushy mushy dumb heart! Hear me out...

Khe-Em... (11-26-2K)
It's been 6 years... I know, right?! I am happy and sad with where you are heading right now. A lot of us here will miss you... the funny-humorous-naughty you! But hey, what's the use of internet. Anyway kahit andito ka nga this is our means of communication (most of the time) so it'll not make much of a change, huh. I wish you and your family all the best there in Singga! Kapag mapunta ako diyan for work or maybe vacation at least I have someone to show me around...

Beverly Salviejo... (07-24-2K4)
Hahaha! Sowee, wala ko maisip na name eh... sige lagyan ko na lang ng - Da! Ayan... Well, last Saturday (October 28) when you were at that platform on one of the bars there in Malate singing your heart out, it was only then when I really realized how happy and proud I am of what you've become. It is an honor to be a part of that process... and yes, it is a continuous process. I am really happy for you and I promise to always be there for you everytime you need me. I treasure what we had and what we now have... true friendship. Good luck on everything...

Baby-Ga... (11-23-2K5)
Yes, I saw your post sa friendster. I am happy that you have found a new love. It's been almost a year... few weeks na lang buti humabol pa. Sarap ng feeling na in-love nu? So now you'll never feel alone. Now after work, you have someone and something to look forward to, to spend the rest of your day. Thank you for the wonderful memories... It may be such a short time but it's meaningful... ayan wag ka na umuwi ng Iligan! Malamang hindi na... buti andiyan si Amboy, hehe!

Moks! (02-21-2K6)
I thank you so much for being there for me, for always trying to understand and to comprehend. I will never be, well - I guess... somewhat complete (on the mushy part of moi) if not for you. And thank you for understanding that sometimes... just sometimes (specially recently), Lansky will be lukaret with hmm... my Jedi Knight! Hehehe... it's a phase I know... naku magsasawa rin yun kakamessage saken. Ich Liebi Dich Moks...

Jedi Knight... (10-24-2K6... hihi!)
(At talagang meron kang entry dito ah!) Thanks for the messages... and for letting me realize that my celebrity fantasy can come true... kahit hanggang dun lang. Pwede na! Haha!

So there... my Halloween trick or treat. Maybe it's Jedi Knight who's part of the bigger "trick" - in the traditional trick or treat. Oh I soooo love Halloween... and I love the new look of my blog! Funky Funky! Snap Snap!